at peace?
November 9, 2010
I really think I might be over CG… but now my feelings for TA have increased, and that, unfortunately, is a no-go. At least, for now!
And I still have feelings for OG, who should be a no-go, but I just keep poking holes. Poke poke poke. Reminding him that I’m here, reminding him that he has other viable (and possibly, preferable) choices. And I will keep doing this… until he has children. Yes. Then I will stop… because I TRY to be a decent person.
Sometimes. Kind of.
So, I guess TA is the more probable of the two… so maybe I should start putting some money on him? (i.e. going to see him more. I need to soon anyway… darn project!)
My love life, though pretty much non-existant, is nonetheless screwed up, oui?
So… cheers to that! Thinspo:
ps. I have too much darn food in my room! Remind me to say NO to going to the grocery store… 😦
thinspo 10/25/10
October 25, 2010
guess how many calories I’ve had so far today
October 19, 2010
… 200
REALLY! and i’m not even hungry. at all. i only ate lunch because i was with people… and then i only got a small soup.
how? why? coffee. coffee is magical.
i usually don’t drink coffee. at all. but today i decided to drink some, for i heard it can be good for weight loss and such… and i drank A LOT. a whole thermos full, with just a hint of soymilk in it.
and i’m relatively petite.
SO it had a pretty darn big effect on me! therefore, i will not drink quite THAT much again, but i think on thursday i’m going to have a bit. and then i’ll have a bit on tuesdays and thursdays.
that way, i’ll have 2 low cal days a week AND i hopefully won’t build up a tolerance to the stuff.
win-win, correct?
gah, i’m caffeine-high right now…
i have more that i want to tell you, but i think i’m going to wait until i’m less jittery 😉 . until then, thinspo?
i guess the blogging gods are on my side today!
aside: i LOVE the deschanels. just saying.
alrighty, then!
ps. i’m looking for feedback: do you like the pictures i’m posting of my food? are you getting anything out of it, or is it just a waste of space? feel free to be honest! (but kind 🙂 )
happy day, all!!!
what i didn’t get to post yesterday
January 19, 2010
my poem’s been published!
August 17, 2009
yay!
check it out: http://prunfriendly.wordpress.com/
13 reasons why I’ve got to do this
May 16, 2009
you know what i want?
- to not feel my thighs rubbing together when i wear a dress without tights
- my hipbones (which i’m beginnning to see!) to be more defined
- my size 2 bullhead jeans, which i bought to be loose, to be looser
- my boobs, which are approaching a b-cup, to get back down to an a
- to be able to wear a tank top on it’s own and not just as a layer under a bigger shirt
- to be confident
- to have girls envy me and guys think i’m hot
- to look in the mirror an be proud at what i accomplished
- to be able to pull off crazy outfits
- to get back into a 0 in jcrew shorts
- my short torso (seriously, there’s a little less than a foot between the bottom of my bra and the top of my waistband on my low rise jeans) to look less stubby
- to not fear spring (because layers begin coming off this time of the year)
- to be able to go shopping without feeling like i’m rewarding pudginess