101

December 20, 2010

while not perfect– or, really, ideal— it’s not 102.8!

woo-frickin’-hoo!!!

seriously, i was stuck on that darn number for… a week? 10 days? (something ridiculous)

and now i’ve finally made it off that number and onto a different, lower number. (and one without any of those decimal points, which i like. 101.0. so chic, so sleek.)

yay.

also… my finals are over! HUZZAH! and i’m home 🙂 which is nice because i love my family… and i have easy access to an exercise bike AND an elliptical in our wonderful basement ❤ for when i eat too much. it’s my way of purging, so i suppose i’m running down that path towards “exercise bulimia” or “exercise anorexia”… but isn’t it healthier to get rid of calories by exercising then by vomiting?

anyway… celebratory thinspo:

a demain

procrastination thinspo

December 13, 2010

i read a grand total of 50 pages today. excuse me, but F**K!!! now i have to read all this stuff tomorrow and wednesday morning.

not that i’m new to this. no, sir. i’m a veteran of procrastination… which probably isn’t great but it’s one of my smaller problems.

anyhow, enough words!

she reminds me of the Australian character on Outsourced, played by Pippa Black, who is likewise thin and gorgeous.

sigh. i love supermodels. i think they’re the most beautiful creatures on the planet.

and we end here with the lovely Emma Watson.

speaking of which, how did everyone enjoy the new movie???

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no words, just pictures

November 8, 2010

pictuuures

June 8, 2010

crisis averted. drank a little beer to settle my stomach and then went to bed.

so, i’m getting a new computer, so i’m gonna start posting mass amounts of pictures so that i don’t have transfer them. i hope that’s ok.

^^^ i love skins 🙂

^^^ this is the beach body i’d like

^^^ cute sweater (i love sweaters)

have any of you ever been in love with someone with a boyfriend/ girlfriend/ significant other, maybe even a fiance or spouse, or just someone you couldn’t have for whatever reason? because i need some serious advice on this subject and i’m feeling very alone right now. 😦

ps. i got a twitter, but it’s my personal one so i’m afraid to post it here lest someone figures out this blog is mine. not that i’m ashamed of anything i’ve written here… it’s just very personal. anyway, if any of you have one, we should exchange.

it’s only a day away

April 5, 2010

so tomorrow i start my first day sans birth control and i am SO excited!!! i really feel like this could be the start of a whole new chapter for me… i mean, i already feel happier, more free. and i know looks aren’t everything and weight’s not everything, but it’s something.

and what if the hormones from the pills have also been affecting my mood? i HAVE been crying a lot lately…

ag! i’m really hopeful this works out. 🙂

an experiment

February 13, 2010

it’s early here, so i’m doing a bit of an experiment: if i see thinspo early, will i eat less than usual?

we shall see. we shall see… 😉

failure friday

February 12, 2010

at least, that’s usually what friday is for me because i’m always EXHAUSTED after a week of school and homework and running around the hallways that all my willpower vanishes.

but not today.

it’s been SUCH a long time since i actually met my goal on a friday, and i fear that this will turn into a habit. and that would, frankly, suck.

so i’m going to eat some oranges, a healthy dinner, maybe a smidge of dessert and do my spastic-dance thing. (that’s my new favorite exercise; it’s sooo much fun! 🙂 )

so, what do you say? let’s all reach our goals today so we can feel GREAT tomorrow morning!

^ her wrists are so small and dainty

writing on my hand

February 2, 2010

i was in a bit of a rush yesterday so i completely forgot to share a trick i’m trying out: writing my current goal weight on my hand.

the two nines are written very small, of course, because i don’t want to draw attention to them. and they’re strategically placed so that if i’m wearing long sleeves, they’re hidden (as my arms are short for a lot of sleeves).

it’s nice to peek at them. someone offered me a cookie yesterday, and i looked at my numbers and said no. i regretted declining at first, but it feels so good to type this!!! i need to hold on to this feeling to give me more strength…

but, yes. this is what i’ve started doing. i don’t know how original it is; i just kind of did it monday in school without thinking about it, but i bet others have done the same. regardless, if you’re curious, give it a try if you haven’t!

today’s thinspo:

^ i’ve started to get into pictures w/ boyfriends (maybe because i’m single… 😉 ) so this won’t be the last of its kind you see on here!

i also just wanted to let you guys know that you’re awesome! seriously.  i LOVE receiving your comments; they’ve lifted my mood so many times!

so, thank you. i’m glad i’ve found such wonderful people here. 🙂

thinspo for saturday

January 16, 2010

…because i find that, for me, friday and saturday are the days most likely to throw me off track

bloat?

October 9, 2009

i’m a bit less bloated, but still bloated. i think it’s because this week i’ve been a tad sleep deprived, and therefore, lacking in my usual willpower.

conclusion? i ate too much.

grrr.

i mean, i haven’t quite binged (though i’ve been SOOO tempted to on freshly-made rice crispy treats…) but 1100 and 1200 is not me. and my stomach has obviously been quite influenced. in fact, my stomach is always quick to change.

example: in the morning after not eating too much the day before, it may be flat, the ribs semi-apparent. looks good. then i eat breakfast… maybe just a luna bar. what happens to my stomach? the gut bumps out and any tight shirt is unacceptable.

this is why i never wear skin-tight tops.

but anyway, it’s weird. i think that my stomach likes to rebel against me.

thoughts?

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