thinspo 10/25/10

October 25, 2010

^^^ really creative title, eh? 😉

^ a tad halloween-themed 🙂

^ vera farmiga. LOVE her. i mean, up in the air? boy in the striped pajamas? terrific movies, in my opinion.

ok. tis all. 🙂

do you ever look around your school/ workplace/ neighborhood and notice all of these people who look better than you? i know i do. and thanks to facebook, i get to notice them A LOT because these people just love posting pictures of themselves.

which is vain, i suppose, though i wonder if i’d do the same if i looked like they did.

the bikini pictures get me the most. i mean, these are real people the i know… not people whose pictures i found by typing “thinspo” into Google images… and they look so much better than me that it’s crazy.

because i know i don’t look bad. i know that. i’m not anywhere close to being overweight.

maybe that’s it. i know that i’m close, so i keep asking myself why i can’t just go a little further and be proud of how i look in pictures and real life.

especially pictures… i think there’s something wrong with my mirror, because i’ll look at myself and think good things, and then i’ll see pictures of myself from that same day later and thing whaaat? what happened?

do you know what i mean? it’s like some cruel optical illusion. 😦

so here are the promised pictures:

^^^ i want arms like these

^^^ i love this dress! anyone know where i can get one like it?

^^^ i LOVE her. so pretty.

^^^ can these please be my legs?

huh. her face kind of looks like mine. her hair kind of looks like mine too. but her body? ha!

anyhow, yesterday i was kind of trying to hint to my friend that i have an ED because i was bored and because i hoped she would be supportive.

i said, “when i was a sophmore i didn’t eat for three weeks.”

and then she started going off about how she knows because one time she fit into a small.

i kept my cool, but really??? i was trying to talk to her about something serious and she just made light of it.

needless to say, when i try again to talk to someone about this, it WON’T be her.

i’m sorry for this long post, but i just have a quick Q: how can one gain ten pounds in a week while eating the same amount she’s been eating? because last week, my weight went from 92 to 100.

ok, so that’s 8 pounds, but how is that possible? can bloating alone cause it?

and why, this week, am i 102???

i’m kind of flipped out here, because i really changed NOTHING and i was doing so, so well… 😦

at least yesterday was good. i was so busy with my friends after school that i only ended up eating 600 calories, which is low for my taste, but it’s better than high.

maybe socializing is the key to weight loss. maybe that’s why all those “popular” girls from my school are so skinny…

ok… so while i was gone i met a lot of people, a number of them very thinpirational people. i won’t put there pictures up here, but i can tell you about them:

two of them were twins–very petite twins (only 5 ft). swimmers. only ate organicalley (something about their mom being a health nut). never had cheetos. never had pop tarts. thin, muscular legs and arms. one could do 18 pull-ups but wasn’t at all bulky.

another played soccer and seemed to be a pretty healthy eater. she was taller… maybe 5’5 or 5’6. here legs and arms were, again, muscular but not bulky. she was extremely active, always kicking around a ball. she also had very narrow shoulders.

the last one i recall was a dancer. she was very tall. 5’9 or 5’10 and VERY skinny, with long legs and graceful arms. she was also an extreme health nut. she ate salad for both lunch and dinner, and yogurt and a banana for breakfast. she also ran whenever she could, and had a long, ballerina neck.

these people were very inspiring to me, as they all had two things in common: they ate healthily and were active. well, and a third: they were skinny.

so, if change my ways, i can be skinny too.

anyone else want to challenge themselves? i’d love to have a buddy. 🙂