i think i need to write. i mean, i get to write in my creative writing class but i can’t write about my food issues or undying love for one of my ex-teachers or i’d probably get sent to guidance.

and so i’m back! and i must say, i’ve missed this place. it keeps me writing and keeps me on track food-wise. i think when i went on hiatus i was getting down into the 90s. so let me catch you up:

i went down, down, down pretty painlessly… and that scared me. and then i was at 90… and that scared me. but at the same time, i was excited. but i started eating more so now i’m back at 100.

and now i wish i hadn’t been scared. i mean, 90? maybe not. but 95 would have been ok.

but i’ve been trying to lose again because prom is coming up. tomorrow. i hate prom. and i wish i had just stayed at 90… then i would feel sooo much better.

because now i’m really really scared. i HATED how i looked in the pictures last year. my arms and calves, especially. but i was heavier at this time last year, wasn’t i? i feel like i was. i hope i was…

i’m most worried about my arms. they’re all flabby up top. not up to my standards.

now, i think that’s enough complaining for one post.

i hope you all are well! i need to catch up on A LOT of blogs.

cheers

EDIT: i just realized i left you with a bit of a cliffhanger. well, i’m still off the birth control and i do think it’s making losing weight easier. and i’m probably less puffy but right now i’m too negative to see it.

^^^i LOVE this outfit! the pairing of the sweater and the dress makes it…

^^^how can someone so thin still have boobs? for me, there’s a trade-off.

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Happy day-before Easter

April 3, 2010

HEY EVEYONE  IMI’M WRITING THIS ON AN ITOUCH AND I CANTCAN’T FIGURE OUT HOW TO CHANGE THIS THING TO UNIN CAPS AND ENTER SO I APOLOGIZE    ANYWAY IMI’M KIND OF EXCITED FOR MY FIRST VEGAN EASTEER TOMORROW BUT IMI’M STILL NERVOUS ABIUTABOUT TH CALORISCALORIE AND WUCHSUCH   ESPECIALTLY SINCE IMI’M NOT FEELING TOO GREAT ABOUT MY BODY AND PROGRESS THESE DAYS   BUT I HINK I HAVE A SOLUTION   YOU SEE IVEI’VE BEN ON BIRTH CONTROL FOR  A YEAR AND A HALF TO HELP WITH MENUSTRATION AND EVER SINCE IVEFELT FATTER   BUT I THOUGHT MAMAYBE THAT HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH PUBERTY PROR EATIG HABITS BUT NOW THAT IVEI’VE BEEN EATING SO WELL WITHOUT THE RESULTS I WANT IMI’M WONDERING IF IT WAS THE PILLS AL ALONG   SO IMI’M GOING OFF OF THEM FOR A FEW MONTHS    IF MY PERIODS DONTDON’T AGREE WIHWIU HTHT IELL HAVE TO GO BACK BUT RIM HOPING IMI’M FIXED AND THT THIS WILL BE THE ANSWER IVEI’VE BEEN WAITING FOR   KAYBEMAYBE IMI’M PUTTING TO MUCH HOPE IN THIS EXPERIMENT BUT I HAVE TO BELIEVE IN SPMETHINGSOMETHING THESE DAYS  A LOT OF CHANGES ARE TAKING PLACE IN MY SCHOOL AND EVEN THOUGH ILLI’LL BE GONE NEXT YEARE HEY UPSET ME      OK SO HOPEFULLY ILLI’LL GET BETTER AT THIS BECAUSE HE KEYS ARE REALLY FUN TO PRESS AND IDI’D LOVE TO LEARN HOW TO POST PICS   OK BYE